New Starts

I started volunteering today around skid row. I feed homeless people at a mission. I was scared that the place I volunteered at was going to be strict, but I quickly befriended the head chef. He made me feel comfortable enough that the other volunteers thought I had been working there for some time. The chef was busy, so I tended to volunteers whom had no idea where to start, then brought them to the head chef for further instruction. Everyone worked so well together. There were some kids from, what they told me, a placement home. They had explained they had done things to get them in trouble, and these placement homes transfer them out of their schools and homes into a daily regiment that will teach them to act more...civil? When they do well with their grades, and personal progress they can go home. The boys behaved well, I forgot their ages quickly. They were helpful and respectful. Let's hope they can return to good homes and better lives after their program! I look forward to volunteering again and again! Volunteering is part of my religious repetition for my practice of spirituality.

I know I haven't finished my 30 day challenges,  but I know I will try hard to complete my new schedule for the week. Almost every day will be different. This will certainly be my hardest challenge when school starts to try to be on point until the semester finishes. I've come a long way and seen improvement in my ways. But I want this semester to be that ultimate test. I want to feel the reward of long term work in the end. I want this new start to be the test of my strength in the many ways.

These new starts will test my character and determination, and help me lead my own religious life dedicated to my spirituality. Here we go, new starts!

Preparation For School

     So, I will be returning to school in about in two weeks. This upcoming week will be my last week to fall  asleep in the early a.m. and wake up in the late late p.m. I will be focusing on getting my school supplies and returning to better habits. I will be reorganizing and cleaning my space for better studying habits. These days are going to be TIRESOME. But I really want to build to something, you know?

     When school starts, I will be trying to blog differently too, to bring my school experiences here.

     I am going to try to live up to my new schedule for next semester.

Help From The Distant Past

"The only thing that could spoil a day was people. People were always the limiters of happiness except for the very few that were as good as spring itself."
-Ernest Hemingway

"A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy? "
-Albert Einstein

"All religions, arts and sciences are branches of the same tree."
-Albert Einstein

 

"Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.'
-Oscar Wilde

 

"Bad times have a scientific value. These are occasions a good learner would not miss."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

"A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval."
-Mark Twain

"A man is never more truthful than when he acknowledges himself a liar."
-Mark Twain

 

 

Oh, I could go on with the quotes, there have just been so many amazing people in this world who leave us their words. These words are so kind. Sometimes when I need a bit of kindness or help pointed my way, I turn to the words of the past, from those of the past. Yes, yes, who I have with me now should be the ones I take help from. However, I am just so personal and don't want to explain my emotions to those around me. If they knew, I would just hate if they could read my heart. It is too vulnerable! I just feel my heart "jump". Only a few times have I had my heart read by people, but the feeling is just too strong for me to handle. When someone can read what's exactly in your heart-- they know you. I have spent so much of my life misunderstood, even today I am too shy and sensitive to such a matter occurring. 

 

So, I try to just live out my life and handle my own problems for the most part. Although, I have turned to people personally for help before-- I prefer to not do it often. 

 

I enjoy finding help in the words left behind by those before us. It really warms my heart to know that others go through the same trial and error, pain, emotions, thoughts, and life situations. 

 

Thank you so much to those of the past who have left their words to help! :)