Task for Today

Task for today: Think of one thing that you would like to change about yourself. This can be achieved through a simple process of journaling. Write freely as long as you would like and focus on where you are presently at in life and where you would like to be as a person. Acknowledge the things you don't like, but also admire the things you do like about yourself. Choose the one thing you would like to change. Acknowledge it, meditate and pray about it, and simply make peace with it, then let it go. ♥ 

The thing I would like to change about myself:   

I wish I was more confident.Most of my problems seem to come from how confident I am not. I procrastinate too much. I start to worry if I am doing the task right. I wish I was confident enough to just start. Sometimes, I am a coward. I just don't want to cause problems because I value well-kept peace. 

However, I have learned in my life that there is a point where cowardice can turn into bravery, when we are sick of the way things are. When we have hit our lowest points, like the true cliche continues,  we can only go up.

The kind of person I want to be is peaceful but fierce, I want strength to back up peace to protect those who need saving. I am a very weak kind of person at times, I want to be kind with people for the most part and avoid unnecessary events of negativity. I try my best to be calm and cool about certain things, but some people only learn through the taste of their own medicine. Sometimes, being nice does not get a thing accomplished. People don't care about respect, they only care about who screams or hits louder, or who can shut them up. I have met too many people of this kin-- who refuse to stop their negative actions by acts of kindness. I think of Martin Luther King Jr. Sometimes, you must take people's bad actions towards you and go on. They will think you are the loser for not reacting back with negativity and hate-- but in the end their true character, who they really are, is shown by their negative actions. That is the true conclusion in the end. They see themselves as superior- but the true eye only sees ignorance. 

I want to practice kindness towards those around me-- but when should I ever become tough or try to belittle those around me? But I don't want to be caught up in negativity. I want to be able to keep my mind clear, so that way, I may accomplish my dreams and find my truest potential. 

I want to become the kind of person with the power to live my life the way I wish. To live life the way one wishes, in a manner that wouldn't ruin the lives of others or rob them of their own, is true power. To be able to break those confinements of society, religion, and politics. It is not just power alone though, there is a certain way to it. A certain understanding. Alone, it is a powerful concept. For most people, it just means to become rich and flaunt your money around to make your life work-- but to me it's going beyond money. You must know yourself physically, mentally, and spiritually--balance yourself. Everything has to come together in that certain manner. You must break the limits imposed on you. To do this-- is to change the world of it's worldly ways. To show the world that poverty needn't exist, that money is just a concept, that what we consider life may just be a prison in disguise. We think all these things are real because they are all we know-- but all we "know" is false. We haven't yet broke these borders and constrictions-- there is further to go. More to teach and to love, but those constrictions will always await to challenge those that try to defy them because this is one of the most powerful concepts-- to go above and beyond that which we know-- to live our lives fully the way we want. 

 I remember, In high school, 11th grade, my English teacher asked the class "What is happiness to you?" She told us to write our answers down on a piece of paper. I wrote: "Happiness is living life the way you want."

I want to be confident enough to surpass it all.